ADC's from my son

[DKing]

http://www.amazon.com/Beyond-Reason-Lessons-Gifted-Child/dp/1440123977 This book was recommended to me from someone on another site and this is a good book which is a similar story to my own, the only difference is his son was 9 so a lot older than mine so the pre cognition was more obvious as he could communicate a lot better. What struck me most though was the authors experience, the book spans many years but his early experiences were a mirror image to mine, I couldn't believe this when I read it.

Thanks for sharing this recommendation. I found his web site: Beyond Reason. There is a media video on the site as well: Video. The first Chapter is online at the site: Brian's Story.

I like the fact that he is a medical Doctor and trained in 'reason' and 'logic.' So the title makes sense.

Though his death garnered media attention, the mysteries before and after his death were never shared. Brian foresaw his future, gave himself a going away party, and left good-bye gifts and a note telling his parents not to worry about him. After his death, Brian's influence continued. His father—a rational physician who did not believe in metaphysical phenomena—embarked on a mystical journey through grief into a creative world he did not know existed. What he learned by healing stretched the capabilities of his reasonable mind. For anyone who wants to know how grieving can become a journey of wonder and hope, Beyond Reason can guide you. Source: Beyond Reason

I have so many memories that touch on the metaphysical, mystical and topic of 'beyond reason' it is hard for me to focus sometimes. This story reminds of several instances in my past - especially the encoutner I had with 'soulmate #6' on my website. Childhood Soulmate Cases. The Web site is not completed yet - and I am filling in the pieces as I go along. So, his story isn't up yet. My reference to my intial ADC with his spirit after his passing is at: Childhood Comrade.

(Wow! I just checked out my site and there are many missing links and incomplete pages. I am sort of unorganized and working in 'piece work' trying to complete a foundation of a story. Bear with me.)

But this comrade of a friend was the seventh 'soulmate' connection I felt I encountered during my childhood. I was 14 when I met him and he was only 12. We quickly discovered that we both shared a mystical bond - and had the same type of mysterious spiritual and out of body type dreams. I considered him a 'novice' when it came to the spiritual realm. I had an animal spirit guide at that time and he had his own 'animal' spirit guide - which I could see. He was shocked when I told him I could see his 'pet spirit' around him. He said I was the first person he ever met that could see it as he could see it. A special bond developed between us quickly. The was a special love between us that was innocent for that age. He was my shadow after we met.

One day he took me to the side and told me that he had been given insights to his future in the world. That is when he told me that he wasn't long for the world and he wanted me to prepare for his departure. At that time - my mind was that of a 14 year old who had been having 'near death experiences' since the age of six. I didn't understand 'death' from a human perspective. To me - 'death' was just a door you went though to get to the other side. (The tunnel.) I didn't like the idea of being in the world without him. I felt we were going to be friends for life. He told me that he was trying to shield me from the pain that was going to come to me when he left the world.

I went to my Mom and tried to talk to her about it and get advise. Of course, my Mom had an adult and normal perspective of what 'death' was and realized what I was talking about. It didn't phase me. I had no human emotions about it and just thought it was a 'thing' to contend with while in a human body. My Mom freaked out and told me NOT to talk about it to anyone. She felt that if God was given me and him insights to deal with in the privacy of our friendship and the special bond that was between - then it was only meant for our ears. She told me the rest of the world wouldn't understand "God's plan" to take a young child from the world at an early age. He told me that he would never see the world from an adult perspective in this life time.

A part of the plan was for me to forget about the 'insights' of his departure and the conversations we had shared. He had told me that from his 'mystical insights' - the memory of that conversation would hurt me when he passed away.

The web page I have up - has to do with how my 'dissociative amnesia' played a major role in my denial. I forgot he even existed in my childhood - just to spare myself the grief and pain of his loss. He died in 1981 and I didn't start recovering memories of him until 2006.

So - I can identify with the story that Dr. Korbon shares about his son having that sort of mystical insight at an early age. I also can identify with a difference in the mindset of 'childhood' and 'adulthood.' When I look back on the two stages - it is like I was two different people. I feel that all children have a closer mystical connection with their 'unconscious' souls.

Prior to his loss in 1981 - I had lost two other friends. My Godfather and another best friend. I had contact with their 'spirits' in the aftermath and they told me that their 'spirits' had came to me in 'dreams and visions' in an effort to prepare my own conscious minds for their loss as well.

My girlfriend was similar. I got to witness how 'blind and deaf' her own conscious mind was to the 'truth' that was approaching that was going to take her from this world. I kept getting 'spiritual signals' and 'flashes' of spiritual insight prior to her 'death' that made me think - she knew about it. I confronted her on a human level and she swore she had no idea what I was talking about. If she had any idea what was approaching us - she never let on in a direct way. But I felt her heart knew what was coming up around the corner.

So when I met the friend in 1986 (whose name was Andy as well,) - I had experiences in my past that led me to believe that his 'inner heart' would have sight of his own 'scheduled' departure date. Andy spoke to me directly about it - but said he didn't want to speak to others the same way. His brother is on record stating the same thing. His bandmate, roommate and anther close friend is also on record stating it.

"He probably had intuition that he was going to die," admits Kevin. (Brother)
"As much as anyone could understand their fate, he knew it all along," says Scot Barbour. (Producer)
"I think he always had this tragic sense about himself. He had a sense that it wasn't necessarily going to last. I think he was hoping that it was going to and kind of racing towards feeling all of a sudden like he could be successful and navigate his way through life. But also some kind of self-fulfilling prophecy about his own early demise." says Stone Gossard. (Guitarist)
Source: Bone Idol

This was a very hard subject to talk about back then. (In the late 80's.) But over and over again in my own experiences - it has been shown to me that the 'inner soul' always knows the schedule and plan, and much of the time the soul keeps that plan a secret from the human mind because of the conflict it creates in our own limited human conscious understanding.

I am going to work on my website and update the missing links today.

Thanks for sharing the reference to the book. Submit the other stories here or where ever you feel it applies.

DK

[birksy82]

Dk, I will read all of your experiences at some point, I don't get a lot of time to do things on the computer and it takes me forever to write my replies on sites. I'm pretty new to forums in general not just spiritual ones . I just can't believe how much you can remember, not to mention how much you've had to go through, I have to give credit where credit is due and you're doing a great job with this site and sharing your experiences.

I was going to post about my past experiences but last night out of the blue I have had the strongest ADC yet , So I will just put this here for now, It is also posted on the adc message board.

Please bear with me as it's a little sketchy, I need to write down what happens at the time rather than the morning after.

I was asleep when I felt something around my head, like an energy, I suddenly woke up and I could see a dark shadowy like mass moving away from my head and down towards my feet. My vision was a little hazy as I had just woken up but it was definitely there, by the time I came to my senses I had a look around the room and it was gone, then I felt great like everything's alright.

I went back to sleep and was woken again by something "brushing" against my foot which tickled my foot too, it was out of the covers. I went back to sleep and it happened again. The funny thing here is my cats like to attack feet from under the covers so in my half asleep state I thought it was them initially until I realised that they aren't allowed upstairs, especially at night. It didn't stop me looking for them though , I'm astonished by these 2 things and this morning I woke up feeling great due to them.

This also confirms to me something I have not yet mentioned, for weeks now I've been seeing movements out of the corner of my eye quite frequently, I haven't thought much of it even though this has never happened in this house until recently. Now I know there is something there when I see them and it must be my son, also I mentioned it to my partner and she said that she has seen them often too. At least I know it's not just me .

Thanks, Andy


Also, I'm glad you like Dr. Korbons story, the video you posted is good I haven't seen that before.

[DKing]

Dk, I will read all of your experiences at some point, I don't get a lot of time to do things on the computer and it takes me forever to write my replies on sites. I'm pretty new to forums in general not just spiritual ones . I just can't believe how much you can remember, not to mention how much you've had to go through, I have to give credit where credit is due and you're doing a great job with this site and sharing your experiences.

Thanks Andy.

Remembering is not something I was always able to do. I went 18 years without remembering 'anything' about my childhood. It was a struggle to get to the point where I could recall things again. Part of the prescription the Doctors gave me back in 1978 was 'writing' the memories down when they started flowing back into the conscious mind from the 'unconscious.' They stated that I would have to learn to control them - for the sake of the emotional attachment involved. They only had theories and models from their own clinical studies from the past to base my case upon because they felt nothing like the degree of my amnesia (combined with my medical condition) had been studied before. Writing does slow down you thinking and it sort of gets the cognitive pattern into a different frequency range that makes it easy to recall entire conversations. The Doctors told me that the 'unconscious' mind has some type of 'recorder' that records every single word spoken as well as every word that is perceived in a conversation. I had to focus on this during the early stages of my amnesia and know that it wasn't being lost to me as much as it was just being 'buried.'

It must have been something I had learned as a child - because I used to go into my bedroom and repeat conversations alone and by myself - out loud.

My family would catch me doing this and thought I was in a habit of talking to myself. It came from advise given to me by a 'spirit guide' who told me that the 'spiritual events' of my childhood were going to be harder to access than 'verbal conversations.' So - when my family asked me what I was doing talking to myself (mimicking the conversations) - I told them I was laying down 'bread crumbs' so my mind would find a path back to the 'point' where I had 'invisible encounters.'

The Doctors (in 1978) felt my 'forgetfulness' was heightened but they assured me that all humans do it. They said there was a pattern associated with age. As you get older - your long term memory from past events is heightened - while your short-term memory of events from yesterday are shortened.

I think that is a common trait with age. Old people were forget their current situation - but will be able to recall events from their youth as if it happened yesterday. My Doctors advised me to watch for those signs and sort of ride out the wave to take advantage of something they felt was natural in progression with age.

I wonder sometimes if what I am writing and sharing is meant for a 'public audience' - or if I am just writing for myself. There is a 'fear' hidden away inside of me that I could wake up tomorrow and have a relapse of amnesia again - and lose everything.

Back in the early 80's when I had the most paranormal occurrences with spiritual contact - the 'black mass' was something I gave testimony to frequently to my friends. I called the 'shadows' back then. This intimidated my friends so I took to calling it something else.

All I have a memory of currently - is waking up and seeing a 'shadow' of a human sitting on the edge of my bed or sitting in a chair by my bed. If it was at night - the 'mass' would appear as sort of transparent 'black mass.' It was not the common method which I would have 'sight' of the spirits but it did occur from time to time. I don't have any memories of the 'black mass' appearing in an orb shape - but it is possible that sort of memory is still hidden away. It is conversations like this that get me to probe my mind to see if there are any 'hidden bread crumbs' that lead me to a vivid memory. (Which usually starts out with a conversation some where in the past.)

I looked at the 'spirits' that traveled with me from 1978 to 1983 - as a nuisance. One of my 'friends' who passed away in 1981 didn't pay no mind to my 'rule' of 'no show' in human form. My mind didn't like dealing with them in a 'real sense' while I was awake. I didn't mind them coming to me in 'dreams' during sleep because it wasn't as stunning. My young friend kept showing him self as he had looked when he was alive in a human body.

To me - I felt the 'natural state' was an orb like 'ball' of energy.

I think the most important feature that stands out in my mind when I read this latest experience - is that it left you with a good feeling. That would be a very important feature to watch out for.

DK

[birksy82]

I wonder sometimes if what I am writing and sharing is meant for a 'public audience' - or if I am just writing for myself. There is a 'fear' hidden away inside of me that I could wake up tomorrow and have a relapse of amnesia again - and lose everything.
DK

Dk, that is understandable, I can't imagine what it is like for that to happen it would be my worst nightmare, the fact that you can remember so much and so clearly now says to me that it's unlikely to happen again, but what do I know?

To me - I felt the 'natural state' was an orb like 'ball' of energy.

I think the most important feature that stands out in my mind when I read this latest experience - is that it left you with a good feeling. That would be a very important feature to watch out for.

DK

The orb is interesting, one of the things I have seen out of the corner of my eye was a big orb the size of a soccer ball, I was on my laptop and saw it at the left side of the screen and it moved to the right and out of view, it was really dark too. My partner has seen one on a few occasions from what she has told me.



I did post all of my past experiences but it didn't work, I haven't got time to do them again so I will post them tomorrow, I do have something to ask you. I've come to realise that I was very sceptical before recent events, even after what I have witnessed before (you will understand me better when I post them I think) I remained sceptical and those things were pushed into the back of my mind, I even doubt events that I have had in my life after they have happened i.e an argument with someone, I don't doubt the whole event just parts of it, it's very strange. Have you any ideas on how I can overcome this? I have a similar problem with adc's but I'm not as bad as I used to be.

Thanks, Andy

[DKing]

I've come to realise that I was very sceptical before recent events, even after what I have witnessed before (you will understand me better when I post them I think) I remained sceptical and those things were pushed into the back of my mind, I even doubt events that I have had in my life after they have happened i.e an argument with someone, I don't doubt the whole event just parts of it, it's very strange. Have you any ideas on how I can overcome this? I have a similar problem with adc's but I'm not as bad as I used to be.

Doubt, a status between belief and disbelief, involves uncertainty or distrust or lack of sureness of an alleged fact, an action, a motive, or a decision. Doubt brings into question some notion of a perceived "reality", and may involve delaying or rejecting relevant action out of concerns for mistakes or faults or appropriateness. Some definitions of doubt emphasize the state in which the mind remains suspended between two contradictory propositions and unable to assent to either of them (compare paradox).

Doubt sometimes tends to call on reason. Doubt may encourage people to hesitate before acting, and/or to apply more rigorous methods. Doubt may have particular importance as leading towards disbelief or non-acceptance.

After my own NDE in 1978 - I found myself in a strange land when I woke back up in this world. I knew what I had experienced was real but it kept fading from view in my 'recall' and the 'reality' of it became illusive. It wasn't physical or material and it was beyond logic and reason. I had to battle with my own doubts. This was my biggest obstacle. The more I talked about it outwardly and openly - the more people expressed their 'own doubts' about my testimony of it. I was giving them 'second hand' information and it wasn't something they could see, hear, feel, touch, smell or taste in a normal way. After awhile - I felt 'doubt' was contagious because the more people expressed their 'doubts' to me - the more I seemed to have to battle with my own 'logic and reason.' I feel that battle between 'doubt' and 'faith' in the 'metaphysical or spiritual' is common. I feel it can work for us and it can work against us.

My Grandparents had a faith in spirit through their religion and they were the foundation I looked to for guidance. It was my Grandfather who gave voice to the advise when he said,

"As God to help you figure out the mystery he has placed in the middle of your life. Don't look to your family. Don't look to scholars, ministers, preachers, teachers or the common man to give you the answers you seek. Look to God for help in your own understanding."

So - at the age of 18 - that it the advice I took and it always worked for me. As an example - when a spirit showed up in my house and I wasn't sure if it was a friend or foe - the first words out of my mouth were,

"God - I got myself a spook sneaking around the shadows of my house. YOU need to put your two cents in on this situation - and give me advise on what to do about it. Either it is for your cause - or - against your cause. I don't trust that dang spook to give me the answer I am looking for. Is it a friend or foe. You let me know one way or another."

At that time - I was aware of outward and inward prayer. Outward was just for show to the 'spirit' involved that I was calling 'God' into play and if they were a 'foe' - they would usually depart the scene quickly. But for the sake of my own protection - I would say an inward and silent pray giving the "Spirit of God" a question sort of like a password or code. Only God would know the question so when I got my 'sign' - signal - or vision within a dream - then it had to come with that passcoded answer for it to be valid in my mind.

(When I write it out - it sounds more than what it was. I never got straight answers. It was always a riddle where I had to use my wits to interpret. With practice over time - I learned my own system which would be hard to define or describe here.)

Point is - I established an intimate relationship with the Creator. It seemed one sided most of the time - because I was doing all the talking. (In a verbal or mental English sense.)

I write and share about the 'spirit of my girlfriend' and how much communication went on between us after her death in 1980. Truth of the matter is, I wasn't as confident of the situation then - as I make it out to be now. It wasn't that I didn't believe I was communicating with a spirit. That was a given for me. My doubts had to do with her identity. The 'idea' this doubt came from many different sources and all had to do with 'superstitious' mind telling me that 'spirits' could disguise their selves and fool our minds into believing they are someone they are not. After that idea got planted in my mind - and her spirit came to me in a vivid ADC - I asked,

"How the hell do I know it is really YOU? How do I know your NOT some spook pretending to be here. Your NOT real no more in a real sense. Your a phantom. How do I KNOW your not a figment of my imagination."

The only answer her spirit could give to me - she gave. Her spirit advised me,

"Ask the Father to help you with that. I come to you in the Father's name - so - expect the Father to sign it with authority in an effort to help you ease your own troubled mind."

I couldn't and didn't identify with organized religion because they make it look so dang simple and they had all the answers (or so it seemed to my mind back then.) The religious minds I spoke with during this period always seemed to give me rotten advise that led me nowhere.

I don't believe in a Book God. I believe in a Spiritual Creator that is a spirit and works through a spiritual channel. So for me - when it came to my own doubts about spiritual matters - I felt their was a 'head honcho' that handed such matters superbly, supremely and divinely. That is where I placed my own trust.

So that is the best advise I feel I can give to others when it comes their own battle with doubt. You have to give God an inch of belief (and believe me when I tell you) when you give God an inch - he will take a mile. What that 'Spiritual Creator' will give in return is usually a mile of 'faith' that comes through some mysterious channel of spirit.

DK

[birksy82]

I suppose having doubts is natural and healthy as after the doubts we can still believe that they are genuine events, it speaks for itself really, well it does to me anyway .


Here is what I have experienced in the past,

When I was around 14 I was walking up the stairs and I saw a dog walking across the landing and into one of the bedrooms, it looked physical and was similar to our dog at the time. I thought it was odd as the dog we had at the time didn't go upstairs, I followed it but it was gone, I went downstairs and asked my parents if ours had been upstairs but he hadn't he had been asleep and hadn't left their sight. It was a large dog too so you couldn't mistake it or "think" you saw it , it was definitely there. It was either the dog that we had before who had died, same breed or it could have been the previous owners old dog who also had died, again the same breed which are German Shepherds. The previous owners lived in another house on the same street so this is how I know he used to have a dog like this as he used to talk to us about ours. I think I put this down to an overactive imagination at the time , if this was the case how could I still remember it? Deep down I always knew it wasn't imagination and I kept it here until recently.

My father died in 2001, in 2006 I was still living at my mothers. One day I was looking out of the window when I felt someone watching me, I turned around and saw a dark shadowy figure watching me from around a doorway, it quickly moved out of sight when it noticed that I had seen it. Now the height and the build resembled my father, I also knew it was him somehow although it took me a few days to figure this out, I was pretty shocked at the time tbh. What astounded me the most was how he was obviously able to see me and then move out of sight as he knew I could see him, just like a physical person. This was too much for me at the time looking back so this is why I put it at the back of my mind, my choice as I was not ready to fully accept it. Also I believe a lot of sceptical people are scared to death of this sort of thing which is why they are so against the idea, I was there once too.

In 2007 I was renting a house of my partners uncle, he had told us that there was a "ghost" there as he had seen it and things would move on their own accord. I always felt a presence there, I have been able to for a long time looking back but thought I was being silly at the time. I kept an eye out for this "ghost" but never saw it until one day when my mind was on other things I saw it walking along the landing, I was in a bedroom and I saw him side on through the doorway, it was a shadowy figure which did look like an old man and seemed to walk like one slightly bent over. He went into our bathroom and then was gone. I felt at ease when I saw this and it was quite a relief as feeling his presence was freaking me out a bit, I think this was because I couldn't see him though. It seemed like me and him were "at peace" after this too as I did have the feeling that he didn't like me at first.

My girlfriend can remember this man when he was alive, I've just asked her if he disliked young people and he did! Also he walked slightly bent over like what I saw that day! She knew him as her granddad lives opposite from this house and her grandmother used to talk to him a lot.

Also I'm wondering if I can only perceive shadows and nothing more, or does it not work this way?

It looks like I'm bringing up my past memories now and I can recall them clearly, although not as well as you can DK .

Andy,