I used to tell people,
"I was driving and crashed my car. I was driving so fast that when it came to a sudden stop - it threw my ghost right out of my body. I found myself naked as a jaybird and flying around the universe like it was the thing to do. I was out of my dang skin and having a blast with it."
In 1978 - this sort of strange occurance was unheard of in the general population. My Doctors had heard of the work and research by Dr. Raymond Moody.
In the aftermath of my car accident I had been diagnosed with retrograde amnesia which affected eposidic memory. I couldn't remember my personal history but I could remember what took place during that car crash when I found myself hovering around like a 'ghost in the wind.'
When the car came to a halt I found myself 'standing' 30 feet from the car which was upside down. I had no idea how I had been thrown from the car. I felt I had been in the car when it stopped rolling.
It took me a while to figure out that my 'inside' body was 'outside' of my physical body.
I noticed my body I was 'shinning' like a light. I felt I had been thrown from the car and my clothes had been lost in the process. I was looking around outside the wrecked car for my clothes. In the rolling process I did what all 18 year old minds would have throught to do. I was trying to protect my jewels. When I looked down at my 'spiritual body' - my jewels were gone. I was horrified by this thought more so than the wrecked and mangled body of my new car - or the disfigured physical body laying inside of it. It took me a while to figure out I was dead and no longer in a physical body. I was wondering what a body and mind was supposed to do in such a situation.
I was relieved. If I was dead I wasn't going to have to worry about explaining myself to my Mom. I was thinking what it was going to be like to wonder into the front door of my house and having to explain that I had lost my skin, my clothes and my car all in one swift move. Then I started thinking about the benefits of being invisible. I had grown up watching the movie "Topper" and was familar with the car crash scene in the movie. The first thought that popped into my mind was 'haunting.' That is what 'ghost's' do supposedly. I was grinning from ear to ear. I had a sibling I wanted to 'payback' for some torment and pain they had given to me. I don't know other people think about in their 'moment of glory' in the afterlife - but my 18 year old mind was ready to get into the 'haunting buisness.' I was trying to imagine what my siblings face was going to look like when they caught sight of me jumping up at them from under their bed.
Through a process I suddenly found myself facing a 'pin of light' off in the distance. I called out for "God's help" in the situaiton and I watched as a 'thread' of light shot out from within my midsection and went off into the heavens toward this 'pin of light.' This 'thread of light' started pulling me in the direction of the 'circle of light' as it grew in the distance. I felt I was "walking" up an invisible flight of stairs. I wasn't moving my feet but found myself floating upwards. I was enjoying the scene of the earth as the land beneath me became smaller. It felt as if I was on an 'airplane' on a gradual decent upwards. I felt myself picking up momentem.
Then I broke through a 'veil' which seemed like breaking the surface of water during a dark night. I looked off in the distance of the 'circle of light' and it was instantanous knowledge flooding back to me. There was a laser like light show coming from this 'light' off in the distance. It was sudden recognition like a child hearing it's parents calling. I just knew this was my Parent's voice. I didn't hear words in English but the light was speaking to me in an old language I seemed to have forgotten. I couldn't believe I had forgotten this 'voice of light.' I felt I was on my way home and was totally excited about seeing my parents again.
I felt that while in the 'earth' body - I had been on holiday or summer camp. Now - it was time to return home. Then it was like an explosion occured and a jet propled motion sent me flying through the universe. Warp speed ahead. I was telling people later that I thought Star Trek was fiction but I had seen myself traveling through a tunnel and the visual was like that of the Star Trek series. Years later I watched the scene in Star Wars when the falcon jumps to lightspeed. This scene is an acurate vision of what I could recall happening when I merged into the 'realm of light.'
Due to my 'mental blocks' - this is where my memory stopped. I could recall vividly going back to the light but I couldn't recall how or why I woke back up in my physical body again.
The next year I would recall insights as I moved forward. I would recall various details. I felt I was walking with one foot on the surface of the planet and the other foot was off in the 'realm of light' somewhere.
Then on my 19th birthday (a year after my NDE) - I had a relapse of amnesia again. Prior to that I had been trying to talk to my family about what I could recall of the 'realm of light.'
My Dad told me that it wasn't the fist time I had died and came back to life. According to him, I had spent the biggest part of my childhood battling a medical condition that was constantly causing life to cease functioning in my body. My Dad said,
"Son - you done died over a 1000 times in your life. Your family can't help you understand it any more than we have already tried to do in the past. Your a grownn man now. Your on your own with it."
My Grandfather said he had constantly told me as a child,
"You can't be a prophet in your own family. God has plans for you Grandson. Your going to have to work those plans out - outside the range of your family's minds. We are totally mystified by your 'trips into the light."
So began the mystery of my life at the age of 18.
This is a scene from Dannion Brinkley's NDE in the movie Saved by the Light.