Near Death Experiences

After my ‘near death experience’ in 1978 – a theme kept popping up in the mystical dreams that followed me in the aftermath.   The theme had to do with ‘twin’ sources of energy incarnating in opposite physical bodies derived from the same central soul of light.

The theme was subtle in form which came and went as I formed new friendships and lost sight of old friends along the journey through time.   My ‘mental block’ formed a wall which blocked my personal view of my past friendships.   I was confronted with the sad news that a friend of mine had passed away months prior to my own ‘near death experience’ in the car accident.   I felt I had a vague memory of being with someone (a familiar spirit) when I was out of my body traveling between the light realm and physical realm.   In hindsight, I can now count the number of times I ran into a soul mate and their ‘twin souls.’

Five years after my NDE (1983) I had five friends who had passed away.  I had no memory of four of those friends due to the ‘amnesia’ I walked with.   I only had to suffer the grief from a sense of loss due to one friend and that tow was hard and heavy.   I can now recall vividly the many ‘after-death’ communications with the five friends who passed away.  I kept a bond with them inwardly and was able to receive messages from them in dreams or through a form of mental telepathy.   The friends in order of their passing are:

• EP passed away in 1977.  I met his twin (FB) in 1980.
• BW passed away in 1978.   His spirit told me I was his ‘twin.’
• SW passed away in 1980.  I met her twin (AW) in 1986.
• TC passed away in 1981.  I met his twin (SC) in 1981.
• JC passed away in 1982.  I met his twin (CC) in 1983.

Through the years – I met others who fell into the category of twin spirits of various soul mates.

• CK passed away in 1986.  I met his twin (KC) in 1986.
• CM passed away in 1988.  I met his twin (MW) in 1988.

I had my second adult ‘near death’ experience in 1988.  I felt I passed through a phase of gathering insights and put most of the subject matter behind me.  It was more of a profound mystery to my human mind and I didn’t expand on it with much conscious thought in the aftermath.   Having had so many friends pass away at a young age was a hardship and I didn’t want to dwell on my losses.   I didn’t start recalling the losses until 1998 and all the raw emotions of the lost friends worked on my nerves again as I tried to pick up the pieces and put together the maze of a puzzle concerning the ‘twin soul’ and ‘soul mate’ concept.   It was still a profound mystery as the memories resurfaced again and I started researching other concepts on the Internet which matched my own personal experiences dealing with the ‘twin spirit’ and ‘soul mate’ concepts.

My own ‘personal twin’ was with me in the aftermath of my ‘death’ experience.  It was with me though many mystical experiences.  I call “it” – it because was told that when the ‘spirit’ was outside the body – then it was without a physical ‘gender.’  It was neither ‘male’ nor ‘female’ in a physical sense.  I was told it was more of a ‘yin-yang’ effect without physical characteristics.   It became like an ‘angelical guide’ to me.

EP <-> FB
In 1980 – I ran into a ‘soul mate’ type friend.  It was one of those ‘instant friendships’ and we were left to ponder why we felt we had known one another all our lives – even though we had just met one another.  One night we were talking and I heard a ‘telepathic’ message coming to me through a spiritual channel.   I told my friend that someone from my past was shouting at me from the other side.  (This happened from time to time after my 1978 NDE.)  It was nothing unusual for me to receive a channeled message like this.  What was unusual was – I felt a familiarity to this ‘channeled voice’ but couldn’t recall him from my past.  His ‘spirit’ was telling me that he (EP) was the ‘twin spirit’ to the friend (FB) I had just befriended.   Because of that – there was a spiritual kinship being channeled though me and there was a profound divine love that went with it.   I told (FB) that his twin (EP) was shinning a light though me for him to feel.   That is where I felt the ‘energy’ or ‘vibe’ was coming from.   My friend and I benefited from the warmth of the glow of that invisible light shinning through us both.   We only spoke about it for about an hour one evening and put the subject aside and never looked back on it again.   Life came crashing down on us and we got swept up in our own dramas.

“Neither a lofty degree of intelligence nor imagination nor both together go to the making of genius. Love, love, love, that is the soul of genius.” ~ Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

TC <-> SC
TC passed away and his spirit was chattering away in a telepathic psychic sense the moment he departed this world.  I had no physical memories of this childhood friend.  My family confirmed some of the tales this spirit was telling me in ‘dream visions.’  I felt I was starting a new or improved type friendship.   It was as if we started over from scratch.  (I was used to this sort of thing with my amnesia.)  He was a little different since he was on the other side of ‘death’s door.’    His spirit (TC) was telling me that I was ‘scheduled’ to meet his twin as well.   His spirit would never give away the details and only spoke in riddles about who, what, when and where.  It was so vague I couldn’t make sense of what his spirit was telling me in dreams until I met the twin in person.  It took a week or so until TC’s spirit came to me and said the new friend was in fact his twin.   It was only then when I added up all the riddles to make it fit into place.   When I brought the subject up with SC – he had no earthly idea what I was talking about.  SC kept confusing the concept with a physical twin from a biological parent.   It took a week of various conversations when SC finally confirmed he was having dreams where someone was coming to him and confirming some of the information I was sharing with him.   We spent a week or so talking about the mystery and then put it aside and went on with our lives.  It was more of a mystery to us than anything we could work with on a human level.  It just helped explain why there was a profound sense of ‘divine and spiritual love’ between us.   Life went on and the drama of life took us on our own adventure and ride.   (TC moved on in 1983)

“To love is to place our happiness in the happiness of another.” ~  G.W. Von Leibnitz

JC <-> CC
I got the news of JC’s passing and his physical memory was swept into the black void of amnesia.  His spirit started showing up in my dreams shortly after his death.  His spirit was also telling me that I was scheduled to cross paths and met up with his twin.   It was the same sort of vague references that sounded more like riddles than any thing firm or solid to work with.   I just went on with my life and waited for this new ‘soul mate’ of a friend to show up in my life.   The meeting in the past always had a sort of invisible signature attached to it.  They seemed to be growing in intensity as I progressed in time.  When CC showed up in my life – I felt the energy instantaneously and was totally mystified.   We were both mystified.   There was always an ‘inner conversation’ going on that I could ‘hear’ in silence.   CC noticed this right away.  My explanation for it was that our souls were old friends and having their own conversations inwardly as we carried on our conversations outwardly.   CC had also had a ‘near death experience’ so his young mind was on par with some of the profound mystical energy flowing between us.   I just told CC that his twin was acting as an ‘angel’ to him for awhile and since we (JC) had been friends prior to his passing – he (JC) was channeling some of his energy and love through me.   This was my ‘fourth’ experience with this sort of ‘angelical twin soul’ aspect – which included my own ‘angelical twin.’   I didn’t fully understand the mystery and as I told CC, I didn’t know if we would fully understand the spiritual undertow of it – until we ourselves passed over to the other side.   We ageed that looking into the eyes of one another was like getting a glimpse of God. (JC spirit moved on in 1984)

“When we see the face of God we shall know that we have always known it. He has been a party to, has made, sustained and moved moment by moment within, all our earthly experiences of innocent love.”  ~ C.S. Lewis

SW <-> AW
SW was with me off and on the most from 1980 to 1983.   I felt meeting the other three ‘twin spirits’ incarnated were preparing me for the up and coming scheduled meeting with her ‘twin.’   She is the one who put the most effort into preparing me for the ‘energy’ and ‘vibe’ that was awaiting me in the future.  Like the others – her spirit only gave me vague references with riddles and a solid assurance that I was going to cross paths.   Her spirit told me that ‘my soul’ and her ‘soul’ would let each of us know something profound and mysteries was between us.   I had thought SW was the other half of my heart – but her spirit kept telling me that we were only ‘kindred spirits’ much like the other three friends who had came in the past.  There was a profound essence of love from a divine source – but it was a channeled love sort of like the moon’s reflection off the sun.   It was defined to me in my dreams like a satellite in orbit in the darkness while the sun (their other half or twin) was absent.   I was the satellite (soul mate) the ‘light’ was reflecting off the ‘source’ ‘twin’ which was on the other side of the planet or – on the other side of life in the afterlife.   I was being told that our “souls” had destined the ‘meetings’ like a row of dominos placed in a row – or – like billiard balls bouncing off the side to score a point in relationships based on divine love and energy.   I was keeping their twins company while they were absent from one another – since I was absent from my own twin.   I met SW’s spiritual twin in 1986.  This was the only meeting where I had a memory of the past physical friendship of the person who had passed away.  (SW.)   It was profound and sent my mind racing.  They were like two peas in a pod.  I called them “Frick” and “Frack.”  I called them Raggedy Anne and Andy.   I couldn’t believe how much alike they were.  When I was in the company of AW – I felt I was in the company of SW.   The only difference in my mind was the outside body.   Their inner hearts were one and the same.   That is when I realized it was true – that we have one we are designed to share our inner hearts with – from the divine design of our Creators.   I never wanted my friendship with AW to end but knew that when his spirit and her spirit found one another again – they would both leave me behind in a cloud of dust to get to one another again.  I was grateful that I got to spend time with each of them in their absence from one another.   It was remarkable.

“Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep.” ~ Elbert Hubbard

CK <-> KC
I met KC on the telephone.  He was into the mystical and we spoke about the concept of twins.  I felt he had a twin.  KC lived 2500 miles away from me and we wanted to meet in person.  I joked with him to send a prayer to his twin and if his twin was near – then our souls would have a soul mate encounter one way or another.   A few weeks later – I met CK and it took me a few minutes to realize they were twins to one another.  I thought this was the first time I had such an encounter.  Both of them were alive and well and living on the same plane of material existence.   I was happy and thought I was going to be able to introduce them to one another.  I was excited about the prospect of studying this sort of thing in person.   The idea was short lived.  CK died the night I met him.   His spirit was coming to me in dreams once again and talking about the ‘orbiting’ satellite acting as a beacon of light his spirit was going to be directing at me to share with his twin (KC) in his absence from the worldly plane of material form and existence.  I kept a long distance friendship with KC during that time.  I told him I felt his ‘twin’ wasn’t in the world and was in the spiritual plane acting as his own ‘angelical messenger’ in his absence from this world.

“We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.” ~ Anonymous

CM <-> MW
I had a relative pass away in 1988.   He was the cousin I felt closest to growing up in the world and we had a very unique spiritual bond together.  I met MW a few months before my cousin CM passed away.  I felt all the mystical spiritual signatures in place.  I knew MW as some sort of soul mate to me and was curious to whose ‘twin’ he was.   I had my second ‘near death experience’ and when I came back from my experience – I knew who MW was and why we had a ‘soul mate’ connection.  I was too busy caught up in my own drama to add it up.  My cousin passed away a few months after my NDE.   In the divine scheme of things – there was a plan and blueprint in play.  On the human level – I was caught up in the emotions of my loss once again.   MW and I parted company in 1989 and it was a familiar parting.   “Until we meet again.”   I felt our souls were old friends to one another on another plane of existence and had plans in the design for our own ‘soul reunion’ planned where the ‘twin souls’ were reunited once again.   I felt blessed to have had so many ‘soul mate’ encounters on my own journey toward meeting my own twin once again – either in this world – or the world to come.   I felt the soul mate encounters were a sampling of what was to be expected when the type of ‘divine love’ felt though the soul mate encounters was a direct encounter instead of a satellite type of encounter.

“To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.”  ~ Karen Sunde

Between 1989 and 1994 – FB, AW, and KC passed away as well.  I once asked AW why he thought I was having so many friends pass away at a young age.  He told me he felt that due to my ‘near death experience’ – I could handle the loss better than others. He told me he felt God knew I could handle the burden and turn my lemons into lemonade.  He told me that the dead bury their dead but I had insights to rejoice with the living spirits of those who passed away – so death was just an illusion I could see past.

All my soul mate friends who passed had a firm and solid belief in reincarnation.  There was something magical and mystical in our friendships that opened up a hidden subconscious revelation and glimpse into the reality of the ‘soul’s life’ compared to the human life.   To us – it was a matter of coming to a party and conquering the conquest which our souls had sent us on a journey for.

The overwhelming lesson I have learned though all these remarkable experiences is – love never dies.  It just dresses itself up in disguises and comes back into the world time and time again – to return all the feelings shared in past adventures – in new mystical adventures of love, heart and soul.

Faith receives, love gives. [No one can receive] without faith, no one can give without love. Therefore we believe so that indeed we shall receive, yet we give so that we shall love. Otherwise, if one is accustomed to give without love, he derives no benefit from having given.  ~ Gospel of Philip 49.

SEE ALSO:   Twin Souls (From the Stars)