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The blog was started in November of 2008. For many years I have struggled to uncover hidden memories stored away in the subconscious mind pertaining to miracles that occurred during my childhood. In December of 2008 – I started recovering those missing memories. I have decided to use this blog in an effort to record my memories of how I used to express those divine incidents when life was ‘magically’ and mysteriously restored to my physical body after suffering numerous “cardiac arrests.” I had a severe heart condition and my family felt I was in fight for my life against the “devil” himself.
My return back to life would mystify the Doctors involved. My family fought to keep me from being being turned into a ward of the State. Some minds wanted to know the secrets involved in the mystery that was taking place in the hidden regions of my tiny body.
Summery
When I was 18 – I had ‘after life’ experience similar to a ‘near death experience’ when my car crashed. It was a death experience to my mind of understanding because the ’silver cord’ was detached and had to be re-attached by ‘divine beings.’ I had another experience when I was 28. My spirit kept the memories of the experiences submerged in the subconscious until I turned 38. Then a flood of memories returned.
To date – I have uncovered a cache of hidden memories concerning mystical and spiritual experiences. I had a ‘death experience’ at the age of one due to trauma associated with my lungs. I had a major death experience at the age of six which lead to a continuing cardiac problem. From the age of 6 to the age of 12, it is estimated that I had over 1000 ‘near death’ experiences and four major ‘death experiences.” In my mind, I distinguish the difference between the two by the major break in the “silver cord.” During this time frame – I had countless ‘out of body’ experiences that were not triggered by a loss of vital signs. During my childhood – I had many encounters with spiritual beings from the realm of light.
From 1977 to 1994 – I had 10 friends who passed away. I had spiritual encoutners with all 10 of them in the form of ‘after death communicaitons” that involved either visual sight or either communicaiton on a psychic level during dreams – or while awake. All 10 friends (while in spirit) gave me insights and prophectic predictions concerning the future. All 10 spirits predicted the names and birthdates of their next incarnations – as well as various other factors concerning future events.
As I scan back over my memories – the common themes thoughout my mystical experiences were reincarnation, soul mates and spiritual twinship as it pertained to the material realm.
The major theme thoughout my mystical experiences was the ‘love of Divine Creation.’ The source of all life eternal.
The posts on my blog are various stories during various stages in my life when mystical elements concerning the spiritual afterlife were exposed to my human conscious mind.
See: Brief Summery (Break down of the various cycles and stages in my afterlife experiences.)
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How do you not feel like you are going crazy? I died at home and came back to my boyfriend grabbing the phone. I was given the choice to stay or go. I felt the pain I was going through down here and the indescribable peace, warmth, and love. My son was the reason for coming back. There was no way to tell the length of time I was gone. It was weird to be communicating with my mind to I’m not entirely sure who. I could hear in my mind “open your eyes (even though I knew I didn’t have any) and accept it and then you can stay.” I then begged to come back for my son; he was all I could think about. I completely rejected death. Then I snapped back into my body sat up and said I’m fine. In less than a few seconds my tongue shrank to normal size, heart started beating again, and started breathing again. My boyfriend’s eyes were huge. He said he was about to call 911 because my heart stopped and I wasn’t breathing anymore. It was anaphylactic reaction that lasted three days.
After that I started seeing people, who aren’t there. I’m not sure how many. There are a few who like my room and bathroom. I always feel like I am being watched. The dark figure likes to stand at the end of my bed and walk into closet. A guy in a black jacket was watching brush my teeth. I’ve seen him a few other times, too. The white figure glows with a defined outline but no real features except for his eyes. He played peek-a-boo with my bed while I was lying in it. He would raise his head above the bed and lower it back down. He walks across my room and into my closet. The first one I saw was walking down the freeway. He turned stared at me and then I blinked and he was gone. Another one after that was when I was walking down the street he was walking toward me. He was starring at me and I smiled back then was raising my hand to wave (thinking he was neighbor) and he disappeared. Someone sits on the end of my bed. One day while in the shower I thought give me a sign that you are here so I know I’m not crazy. I mentally told him to make handprints. Later that day in my fuzzy blanket there were two depressions in the blanket with handprints. The handprints are bigger by 1 1/2 inches than anyone’s in the house. Plus no one was here to make them. This has happened a few more times since then. I have one on the wall outside my bathroom. A few nights ago someone grabbed my leg and pulled my hair. There are more experiences than this. I feel like I am going crazy. I have never seen these people before in my life. How do you deal with this? No one wants to hear about it anymore, but I still have to deal with it.
Hi Marissa,
I am only dealing with it ‘through recall.’ None of these type of paranormal events are currently going on in my life. I don’t know how (at my current age) I would deal with this sort of spiritual ’sightings’ now.
I look back on it as it happened – through a ‘child’s mind’ and with a child’s perspective. When it happened after my 18th birthday – I had amnesia to the past – so I didn’t have direct memories as much as indirect memories. Everyone knew me from my childhood and said this sort of thing was normal for me in my past. So – it was only during the age of 18 to 23 that I had to adjust to ‘paranormal’ sightings.
When I came back from my 18 y/o experience – I had a ’spiritual companion.’ I had a friend who passed away a few months prior to my NDE. I wrote a story about how a blind piano player – re-introduced me to this spirit again. The blind man told me that the spirit of my friend was with me acting as an ‘angel.’ I thought the sight and sound of his spirit was going to drive me crazy – but I had the slight knowledge that he was a friendly source.
But how I got through it – was prayers. I prayed constantly for the ‘Spirit” of my Creator to guide me on my path and give me knowledge of why all this supernatural and paranormal experiences were going on in my adult life. It is harder for an adult mind to grasp this sort of ‘invisible reality.’
So – I am aware that not all ’spirits’ are good spirits – but they will know when a human mind is ’sensitive’ or pyschic to their presence. And yes – I was aware that some of these spirit would try and take advantage of this sort of gift and ability.
One thing for the sake of my own mind was – I kept a sense of humor about it. Since these ’spirits’ are limited to the spiritual realm – they can’t really do anything in a physical sense. The only influence they can have is on the mind. My mind belongs to me. When a strange spirit showed up and tried to have ‘contact’ with me – I looked at it as if it was a real person and considered it rude for a stranger to come up to me and try and have interaction with me on the street. I would keep my wits about me and tell them – it was rude to come at me directly without an introduction. I would treat them with a sense of reality. They know it is rude. If one of them scared me – then I would scold them for being rude and invading my privacy.
Spirits have no right to interfere with your privacy. Let them know that and put your foot down. Scold them and lay down the law.
I eventually laid down the law and the only way a strange spirit could contact me – was if they had permission from the “Spirit of God.” Then I knew it was for the purpose of good and God had to accept responsibility for any action or deed to come from the interaction.
I write on my web site how I used this ‘ability’ to pass on messages from the spirit realm to family members who were battling grief. If a spirit came to me and asked me to pass on a message to their widow – then – if they had God’s permission – I would pass on the message. If the spirit of a Grandmother wanted to pass on a message to a Grandson – then – if it was for the sake of good, peace and harmony – then I would comply.
So – I found a way to turn this sort of thing into something good for myself as well as people in the world suffering from pain. It was a way to channel God’s love to others caught up in a darkness.
Look at them as people and get past the fact that they don’t have a ‘physical body.’ They still have a persona. If they scare you – tell them about it and expect them to respect your feelings.
And pray for God’s guidance.
I hope this helps you cope with your new insights and pray that you find the strength to turn this into a force of good for yourself as well as others. Keep a sense of humor about it. (Watch some comedies like “Topper, Ghost, or Ghost Town.” Follow the lead of these fictional character dealing with it – with a sense of humor.) That is what got me through my own ‘crazy’ stage.
Good luck and feel free to ask any question you need.
Sincerely,
DKing