Rene Turner

I arrived with an explosion of glorious light into a room with insubstantial walls.

Near Death Experience

Here is my life's most important experience. First, the events leading up to it and my parent's report of occurrences while I was away. My NDE and finally how I feel about it.

Scene: 24/02/82, Newcastle Australia, 6:00 PM. Leaving my optical instrument repair firm to go home to Raymond Terrace. Raining after 3 months Dry. I was driving along the Industrial Highway and slowing to stop at lights where exit road from BHP crosses highway. Memory ends.

Reported by Miles (my ex partner): As we approached the lights they changed to green. As we went into the crossing the car aquaplaned. Speed 43 kph. We hit the large industrial power pole just after the intersection. Stuart, who was laying on the mattress in the back of the panel van, was thrown forward into the back of Rene's head, driving her into the steering wheel.

Medical Info: Stuart's spine was broken L4. I suffered Fractures Basal area, Frontal Lobe, Right eye socket, Right Zygoma, all depressed. 6 holes in dura. Also spokes of steering wheel and indicator entered throat up into roof of mouth. Right upper and lower
thorax. Miles suffered a small seat belt bruise.

My Mother Reported that: In the afternoon of 25/02/82 they were in the office of Professor Buchalille. (Professor of Neurosurgery) The professor was reporting my death and that my parents should be grateful, as I would have been a vegetable had I survived. During this conversation a young frightened Nurse came rushing into the office.

The nurse blurting out "She is alive, she sat up and spoke!",

The professor chastised her for interrupting them 3 times before taking her outside and lecturing her about "dead bodies" moving and making noises

The Nurse was emphatic, "She sat up and said "Don't give me any more Drugs!""

At this point my mother took the professor by one elbow. She took my father by his elbow and marched them down the corridor to see. They found me in a back corridor where I had apparently been placed where the nurse could remove equipment prior to my transfer to the Morgue. I was in deep coma and breathing. I remained in coma for a further 10 days.

My NDE:

 I don't know when in the above events of my experience took place. I have no memory of the process of dying or leaving my body. I was moving headfirst through a dark malstorm of what looked like black boiling clouds. I felt that I was being beckoned to the sides that frightened me. Ahead was a tiny dot of bright light that steadily grew and brightened as i drew nearer. I became aware that I must be dead and was concerned for Mum & Dad and my Sister. I was somewhat upset with myself as I thought "they will soon get over it." Like it was in passing just a fleeting thought as I rushed greedily forward towards this light.

I arrived with an explosion of glorious light into a room with insubstantial walls. I was standing before a man about in his 30's, about 6 foot tall, reddish brown shoulder length hair and an incredibly neat, short beard & moustache. He wore a simple white robe. Light seemed to emanate from Him. I felt He had great age and wisdom. He welcomed me with great Love, tranquility, Peace (indescribable), no words. I felt as if " I can sit at your feet forever and be content." This struck me as a strange thing to think/say/feel. The fabric of His robe fascinated me. I tried to figure out how light could be woven!

He stood beside me and directed me to look to my left, where i was replaying my life's less complementary moments. I re lived those moments. I felt not only what I had done, but also the hurt I had caused. Some of the things I would have never imagined could have caused pain. I was surprised that some things I may have worried about, like shoplifting a chocolate as a child, were not there whilst casual remarks which caused hurt unknown to me at the time were counted. When I became burdened with guilt I was directed to other events which gave joy to others. Although I felt unworthy, it seemed the balance was in my favor, and I received great Love.

I was led further into the room, which became a hall. Coming towards me was my Grandfather. He looked younger than I remembered and was without his Hare lip or cleft pallet, but undoubtedly my grandfather. We hugged and he spoke and welcomed me. I was moved to forgive him for dying when I was 14 and making me break my promise to become a Doctor and find a cure for his heart condition. Until that moment, I had not realized I had carried angry towards him!

Granddad told me that Grandma was coming soon and he was looking forward to her arrival. I inquired why she was coming as she had been travelling from her home in Manchester, to NZ, to Miami for continual summer for a number of years! Granddad told me she had Cancer of the Bowel and was coming soon. Granddad seemed to have no grasp of time when I pressed for how soon. (Grandma was diagnosed 3 months later and died in August. I had upset my mother by telling her about it when I regained consciousness.) After Granddad and I had talked a while he took me further into the room which became a hall again. We approached a group of people whom I started to recognize.

The Person who first welcomed me came and placed his hand on my shoulder and turned me towards Him,

He said, " You must return. You have a task to perform."

I wanted to argue. I wanted to stay. I glanced back at Granddad and was propelled quickly towards the entrance. At the threshold all became blackness. Nothing. No
awareness.

After: Slowly, over several days I awoke from my coma during which I half dreamed memories of familiar voices and glimpses of faces. The clearest moments were several occasions where I would awake from deep sleep to find a nurse with a syringe and I refused any Drugs. I have no idea why!

I had three lots of surgery to repair my face, skull, eye socket. Left hospital with Pain, double vision, anosmia, and damage to 8th cranial nerve left me with nausea and disturbed balance. For two years I was angry at G-d for sending me back in such torment, with a task to do with no clues or instructions. Only one thing. A clear message I have no idea how to pass on, which is

" It is time to live according to your Beliefs, whatever they may be, to put you House in order, For the End Times are upon us!"

This can't be my task, there was no booming voice, or any way I know the message got there. I am also unsure of the identity of the gatekeeper, no nametag, and no introduction!

It took me 5 years as a zombie, before i was able to rehabilitate myself. I have gainful employment, formed the Head Injury Society NZ in 1987, and am paraded as the example of how well it is possible to recover from Acquired Brain Damage.

I still don't know my task, still have pain, amnesia, diplopia, etc.

That's about it except to say that the memory of the NDE is more real than what i did yesterday.

Shalom... ve Chesed.... ( Peace and Loving Kindness ){Hebrew}
Peace & Love
-=<< Renee Turner.>>=-
renet@ihug.co.nz

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