Linda Stewart
I felt peaceful and loved immeasurably. I knew I was in the arms of a Being who cherished me with perfect love and carried me from the dark void into a new reality.
Near Death Experience
When I finally gave up my will to live, relinquishing my life unto death was
sublimely easy after my long illness and loss of everything that had made life
worthwhile for me. The decision to leave this world hung suspended in an
extended moment of absolute quiet.
Passionless, I watched my spirit leave my body as a feeling of "otherness"
engulfed me. I felt a strange detachment from my physical body and the life I
had created. I was no longer connected to a pitiful, suffering mass of flesh. I
was not that body and yet, I still existed but in a new state of being. Gone was
the wrenching pain that had accompanied my every waking moment. The strain of
expanding my lungs to gasp for air had disappeared. Fatigue, which had weighted
my life for years, had lifted. Depression no longer drained my mind of hope.
Sight and sounds did not sear my head with pain, leaving me emotionally bereft.
And yet, I still existed. I felt weightless and calm.
Although I knew I was not in the lifeless body lying on my bed, and that the
eyes and brain I had previously identified as mine, were in that inanimate
object with which I no longer identified, I was still aware of sight and
thoughts and sensations. I observed my new reality with tranquility. Slowly I
looked around and below me I saw a vast, endless blackness. Like a void or black
hole, I was irresistibly drawn toward the darkness. Gradually, I felt myself
sinking toward it. I thought, without fear or any emotional reaction, "Isn't
that strange?" I had been so afraid I was going to be judged and sent to either
heaven or hell. But it appeared I would simply disappear into the dark
nothingness. As even my new awareness waned, I yielded to the heaviness
overtaking me as darkness filled my mind. My vision became obscured as I began
to merge into the blackness.
Offering no resistance, I released my hold on any remaining shred of
consciousness and personal identity. At the very moment I felt the last of me
disappearing into nothingness, I was suddenly buffeted by a powerful, energetic
force that swooped beneath and lifted me, carrying me upward. Barely conscious,
my only awareness was a sensation of rising. I seemed to be traveling upward at
an unimaginable speed. A clean sensation of wind rushed over my face and body
with tremendous force and yet there was no discomfort. Vast distances seemed to
fly by me and the higher I rose, the more my head cleared. I became aware of a
deep sense of peace and warmth that permeated my senses. Confused, because the
energy that had enveloped me had a definite presence, I tried to see what was
happening and who was carrying me; who or what cared so deeply for me? I felt
peaceful and loved immeasurably. I knew I was in the arms of a Being who
cherished me with perfect love and carried me from the dark void into a new
reality.
As my mind cleared, scoured of the remnants of mortal, past associations, I was
finally able to open my being fully to spirit and my vision cleared. With the
eyes of my soul body, I looked to see what held me in such love and I beheld a
radiant, Spirit Being, so magnificent and full of love that I knew I would never
again feel the sense of loss. I have no way of explaining how, but I knew the
Spirit was Christ. It was not a belief, perception or understanding, but my
recognition of Christ came from my new perspective of spirit. I did not see the
Spirit as I had seen Jesus of Nazareth depicted in paintings, but the innate
knowing of my heart remembered and acknowledged Christ. The radiant Spirit was
Christ, the manifestation and expression of pure love. Because of my Christian
education, I knew no other name to call what I felt as I looked at him.
Others might have called him Buddha, or Yahweh, or Great Spirit in the Sky, but
the naming did not matter, only the recognition of absolute love and truth was
important. Safe in the gentle yet powerful embrace of His Love, I rested, secure
that everything was okay, exactly as it was supposed to be. Ascending ever
farther, I lifted my eyes to see a Great Light in the vast distance. With Christ
as my guide, I rapidly approached the Light. Ecstasy filled my soul as I looked
at the radiance, many-fold brighter than a sun.
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One most extraordinary aspect of NDE's is that the underlying pattern seems unaffected by a person's culture or belief system, religion, race, education, or any other known variable, although the way in which the NDE is described varies according to the person's background and vocabulary. There is no evidence that the type of experience is related to whether the person is conventionally religious or not, or has lived a "good" or "bad" life according to his/her society's standards (although an NDE often strongly affects how life is lived after the experience).
